Let love reign, rain?
But what is love?
I had never allowed myself to experience love fully until sometime in 2020. No, that is when I understood what love is and decided to define it for myself . My conclusion, love is action. Yes, yes I agree with Tauren Wells, “Love is action that you take, passion that can make any kind of world come down,”
You cannot express love if you have not experienced love. You should probably experience it first. You cannot share from an empty cup.
I did not want to be loved by you because of all my insecurities. I guess I know you don’t choose who you love. You love me for who I am and it’s high-key the best feeling. Your love outweighs my wrongs and though sometimes it feels like I am unworthy you continue loving me.
I don't think I will ever get to a point where I will stop writing about your love because I think I experience your love in so many ways and in very different forms. For now, I know you love fiercely, I would say you love bomb but no you are THE standard of love. You low-key love me aggressively, I honestly cannot start to explain. (Now i understand the only reason i would think of how you love me as love bombing is because i essentially did not understand love bombing but also because that is the worldly standard.)
His love like a hurricane.I am a tree bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy. Love carries, you carry. I can always count on you with or without burdens. even in seasons where I refuse to acknowledge that you still love me, you are patient with me. Your attention and affection are pure and genuine. You are who you are. You love me so much and you are so intentional with it. I am loved by love and that sets the basis of how I love and how I should be loved. Thank you for your love because your love will never run out. I hope I never forget what your love feels like. Be my constant and true source of happiness.
Experiencing love.
First of you cannot fully comprehend what love is and that's probably why you can never understand that friend you keep telling to leave their partners. ( But please let’s be sensible). Imagine that's just a fraction of what love is. The very first step is knowing that in as much as we are imperfect we can always increase our capacity to love and to receive love. If you chip at that wall you will be amazed at your capacity.
Breaking down that wall requires a lot of strength and mercy. That wall was up because of past experiences and it’s hard to break because unlearning is harder than learning. It’s also not automatic it’s a process that we need to trust.
Earlier I talked about being unable to share love if you haven't experienced it. The question now would be who is your source of love? My answer has definitely changed over the years, God is the source, His cup never runs out.
Ephesians 3:17–19
17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge — that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Yeah that strength to break down the walls is not in born. Do the work, trust God with your emotions, trust Him in the hard days when you want to rebuild that wall. Even as I say that God is the source of love and He is the standard of love, how people treat you is not a reflection of who God is. His character is in His word. Separate your view of God from people, people lie and make mistakes but God does not lie.
The crescendo of love is hurt. Even as you allow yourself to experience love know that you will hurt, love is greater than the hurt. Two things can be true even in hurt you can experience love.Allow yourself to experience love.
Yep bye ❤
Yours truly.
